This is officially ma?

When every second i try to call u,do u knw hw hard i am controllin myself?
Every night when i cant sleep well,do you knw hw suffer i am?
How i wish i cn stop blamin this love which bring all pain to me...
movie...quite touchin but mayb i control myself so tear havent drop...When i see the ending,YES! KL the place tht i hope i'll nvr go thr anymore...
Tear start rolling in my eye...
Memory which make me happy n sad...
Ppl which make me happy n sad...
Evryone was RIGHT...Im the only one which was WRONG!
How could i live without YOU? I really wan to know...
Writin thing tht come from my heart...
Lovin smone tht come from my heart...
Should i say lucky or unlucky to love such a person lk u?
For sure tht u wil say unlucky...bt Y i keep fall n fall?
Trap was deep but myself make it deeper...
Stop listen to the same song...it wont make u feel better...
Stop thinkin at the same person...she wont feel tht...(ANYMORE)!
Just to talk crap and talk cock!
I knw i knw...i dun hv cock... XD