Useless

I never stick to my plan when i really decide it.
Singapore arh faster accept me can?
Feel like cant take it anymore~
Stay for nothing in here.
Go there to have new life is my biggest wish now ><
Dun blame me being so selfish cause you are more selfish than me!
The moment you need me,i always there.
But when i need you,you always turn around.
One of us need to turn and move on~
You or me? Let me do that ba.
Having bad situation like you cant really take it le?
Selfish la us.
I treat you good because i love you and want you.
You treat me good is because you need me to accompany only.
Wondering how's my life without you?
Less motivation,less happy,less sad,less meaning of life.
Fell that i born is just to accompany you.
God~you are the one let me met her~
You want me send love to her.
But you never teach me how to make her happy when she sad!
What should i do? =(
Patient? We'll see it one day.
Everything bad will end in one day.
It just depend on your decision.
Stop stalk other people.
Cause i dun wan you make mistake anymore!
Stop~think~ Move on!

things that cannot be say

remember last night i told my bro that girls that cant even share your problem shouldnt together?
today you leave me le. haha.what can i say?
shouldnt say it so early ba?
part of me want you happy and part of me want you stay.
funny right? i do feel so too.
brother already told someone about her case.
im gonna get question le.
response that i get from you is if im innocent~
you dont believe me dont ya?
i guess my brother too.
kind of sad when two important person in my life dun believe me.
if really do i wish im not innocent and i'll return it to my brother cause its important to her.
but the fact~ suan le.
the more that i say,the more you all dun trust me.
i born to be a bad person full of evil and crazy idea.
try to become a good person so hard le.
its time to show my true colour ba?
no need cover it for anyone le since no one gonna trust me including you.
distance not equal to apart.
stop contact not equal to forget.
dint call not equal to cold.
dint meet not equal to not care.
I miss you~
since you not gonna talk to me then i'll talk to you here ba.
sometimes dreams and web is better than real life.
dreams you will talk soft and good to me.
real life you wil just quiet and answer with those short answer (O~).
things that shouldnt say i wont say it anymore le.
lesson one lesson twice.
dun wish to get lesson three.
seriously im not happy.

Miss

When you waiting her there did you realise that im waiting you here?
Like im nothing to you~WHY???
Seriously fucking hate the feeling being invisible to you!
Miss you like i never did before.
Same goes to my love.
Let go le ma? i guess no.
The moment you crazy about her show that how care you are and how sad i are.
Human learn to improve in everything but not love.
Theres no medicine can cure the pain get from love.
Unless lost memories~
Im not the one wish it happen.
But we all know that is not worth to lost memories because someone that dun even care about us.
Stop repeat the same song and missing the same person!
Idiot like me dun deserve to get your love.
Bang & wake me up please~
Drink drank drunk just to have a better tomorrow.
Seems like all doesnt work on me.
Thousand time that i did end up with same result= FAIL!
I miss you sayang~love ya~ =(

~Independent~

What is the definition of INDEPENDENT?
Everything depend on yourself???blek~ :P
Impossible ba? cause in work you gonna communicate with all those fucker which you dont even hope to see de~am i right?
Happy family wont exist as well.
Hope to feel love again but in the same time trying so hard to self recover and turn into INDEPENDENT a bit~
Thing past should just let it past~
YES,it is hard to forget but whats the point tht thinkin it evryday leh =.=
Money go,fren leave,family seperate,jobless,partner gone......
Same shit happen evryday but just different ppl came from different world.
Life still need to move on.
So is there anyone who really can wake me up & tell me evrythg just a dreams?
I never fall so deep? Never work so hard for her?
Day by day i fix my mood set my mind clean my heart~
In the end evrythg still the same. =(
Swt la my life.
Fuckin disappointed on how you treat me~
I guess there was no space for me.
All just ONE person!
Kk~ I shouldnt mad on anything & anyone le >.<
Peace will be always here in earth~
*PEACE* v.v

Update~

So long dint 'choi' tis blog le~
recently break v a good girl.
need to say sorry tht i cant love u.
stay single & available make me feel better than hurt other.
appreciate the day we talked evry nite~
today is a new day.did u ever think of me when u r out thr?
i cant really concentrate in work!shit~
cant fall anymore~keep on remind myself.
fall to a person tht dun love u is a damn stupid thing.
and im doing it ><
feel lk wanna kill myself just lk tht.
i guess im gonna Fall AGAIN le~
:'(

dear,i love u so much~even u dun love me plz always remember tht i'll pui u no matter wht happen de~god do love me cause it make both of us met in my lifetime.
my mood gettin DOWN DOWN DOWN~
Sayang~ >.<
I miss the moment we drank~ Tiger & Guinness is the Best!
wish i can take ur hand n fuck in the club~ XP

game,alcohol & smoke~

2nite i so addict on game. y? tak tau pun~ sien gua~
dear havin her study while chit chating v me~
pity her leh~wan sleep early also cannot~
evryday gotta wait me fin work.sorry la dear.
need to earn money so next month only cn go meet u wht~
faster think abt our 1st date o :P
u wan watch movie la,sing k la or even fight on bed also cn~
i let lou po dai yan choose.
need to give me ans asap o~
out of "game" topic le.
here come next which is~ "alcohol"
dah lama tak sentuh lo.y? dear lo.feel guilty aftr drunk dint get to cal her n reply her msg.
skrg stil feel guilty.dint drink le lo.
last wil be SMOKING~again again & again~
little mui mui suddenly say wan buy sweet for me eat to stop smoke wor~evryday alr kena gam cham by dear le~
nw both also wan buy those thing to me~
i think if i success jor i need to take tissue wipe my tear:"sayonara my pall mall menthol!must take care o!" =.=
sound so sad leh~ :(
mummy complain tht i evry month also borrow money frm her~ask me go find ah pek n kahwin pi.
cham le~dear stil sdg usaha to study.
hw arh??? mum cant wait for few yr meh?
i believe my dear wil do smthg for me de ba?
you Wont dump me to uncle gua~ :(
wuwuwu~i dun wan lo~
wo xi huan de shi ni~bu shi ta~ :P

Think twice or third~plz~

im sorry tht let u wait for me when i drunk here.
i nvr do anythg wrong since we start.
honestly to tel u tht aftr last nite it make me damn guilty tht drink until drunk~
it makes me really wan treat u serious n well.
start from 2day i knw wht to do le :P
mission: make amelia khor fall for me~
abt ur fren,i hope u think twice lo~
i knw u like dominic so much. i dun mind if u stil lk him.
if thr was chances together v him,dun let it go.
luck nt gonna always round beside u so get the chance in the rite timin.
mayb im just a bus stop for u. drop by n go.
no need say sorry o.
just chase for ur love.i support u de XD
miss u~ wahaha~i dun wan namo namo can arh?
i scare leh~tahan! sabar! i cn do it! gua? :P
cannot angry ya.kiddin only.
i wil treat u better single day.
no quarrel no fightin just kissin!
:-* muackzZz~ I miss you my dear ms.Amelia Khor Chee Kei XD