Useless

I never stick to my plan when i really decide it.
Singapore arh faster accept me can?
Feel like cant take it anymore~
Stay for nothing in here.
Go there to have new life is my biggest wish now ><
Dun blame me being so selfish cause you are more selfish than me!
The moment you need me,i always there.
But when i need you,you always turn around.
One of us need to turn and move on~
You or me? Let me do that ba.
Having bad situation like you cant really take it le?
Selfish la us.
I treat you good because i love you and want you.
You treat me good is because you need me to accompany only.
Wondering how's my life without you?
Less motivation,less happy,less sad,less meaning of life.
Fell that i born is just to accompany you.
God~you are the one let me met her~
You want me send love to her.
But you never teach me how to make her happy when she sad!
What should i do? =(
Patient? We'll see it one day.
Everything bad will end in one day.
It just depend on your decision.
Stop stalk other people.
Cause i dun wan you make mistake anymore!
Stop~think~ Move on!

things that cannot be say

remember last night i told my bro that girls that cant even share your problem shouldnt together?
today you leave me le. haha.what can i say?
shouldnt say it so early ba?
part of me want you happy and part of me want you stay.
funny right? i do feel so too.
brother already told someone about her case.
im gonna get question le.
response that i get from you is if im innocent~
you dont believe me dont ya?
i guess my brother too.
kind of sad when two important person in my life dun believe me.
if really do i wish im not innocent and i'll return it to my brother cause its important to her.
but the fact~ suan le.
the more that i say,the more you all dun trust me.
i born to be a bad person full of evil and crazy idea.
try to become a good person so hard le.
its time to show my true colour ba?
no need cover it for anyone le since no one gonna trust me including you.
distance not equal to apart.
stop contact not equal to forget.
dint call not equal to cold.
dint meet not equal to not care.
I miss you~
since you not gonna talk to me then i'll talk to you here ba.
sometimes dreams and web is better than real life.
dreams you will talk soft and good to me.
real life you wil just quiet and answer with those short answer (O~).
things that shouldnt say i wont say it anymore le.
lesson one lesson twice.
dun wish to get lesson three.
seriously im not happy.

Miss

When you waiting her there did you realise that im waiting you here?
Like im nothing to you~WHY???
Seriously fucking hate the feeling being invisible to you!
Miss you like i never did before.
Same goes to my love.
Let go le ma? i guess no.
The moment you crazy about her show that how care you are and how sad i are.
Human learn to improve in everything but not love.
Theres no medicine can cure the pain get from love.
Unless lost memories~
Im not the one wish it happen.
But we all know that is not worth to lost memories because someone that dun even care about us.
Stop repeat the same song and missing the same person!
Idiot like me dun deserve to get your love.
Bang & wake me up please~
Drink drank drunk just to have a better tomorrow.
Seems like all doesnt work on me.
Thousand time that i did end up with same result= FAIL!
I miss you sayang~love ya~ =(

~Independent~

What is the definition of INDEPENDENT?
Everything depend on yourself???blek~ :P
Impossible ba? cause in work you gonna communicate with all those fucker which you dont even hope to see de~am i right?
Happy family wont exist as well.
Hope to feel love again but in the same time trying so hard to self recover and turn into INDEPENDENT a bit~
Thing past should just let it past~
YES,it is hard to forget but whats the point tht thinkin it evryday leh =.=
Money go,fren leave,family seperate,jobless,partner gone......
Same shit happen evryday but just different ppl came from different world.
Life still need to move on.
So is there anyone who really can wake me up & tell me evrythg just a dreams?
I never fall so deep? Never work so hard for her?
Day by day i fix my mood set my mind clean my heart~
In the end evrythg still the same. =(
Swt la my life.
Fuckin disappointed on how you treat me~
I guess there was no space for me.
All just ONE person!
Kk~ I shouldnt mad on anything & anyone le >.<
Peace will be always here in earth~
*PEACE* v.v

Update~

So long dint 'choi' tis blog le~
recently break v a good girl.
need to say sorry tht i cant love u.
stay single & available make me feel better than hurt other.
appreciate the day we talked evry nite~
today is a new day.did u ever think of me when u r out thr?
i cant really concentrate in work!shit~
cant fall anymore~keep on remind myself.
fall to a person tht dun love u is a damn stupid thing.
and im doing it ><
feel lk wanna kill myself just lk tht.
i guess im gonna Fall AGAIN le~
:'(

dear,i love u so much~even u dun love me plz always remember tht i'll pui u no matter wht happen de~god do love me cause it make both of us met in my lifetime.
my mood gettin DOWN DOWN DOWN~
Sayang~ >.<
I miss the moment we drank~ Tiger & Guinness is the Best!
wish i can take ur hand n fuck in the club~ XP

game,alcohol & smoke~

2nite i so addict on game. y? tak tau pun~ sien gua~
dear havin her study while chit chating v me~
pity her leh~wan sleep early also cannot~
evryday gotta wait me fin work.sorry la dear.
need to earn money so next month only cn go meet u wht~
faster think abt our 1st date o :P
u wan watch movie la,sing k la or even fight on bed also cn~
i let lou po dai yan choose.
need to give me ans asap o~
out of "game" topic le.
here come next which is~ "alcohol"
dah lama tak sentuh lo.y? dear lo.feel guilty aftr drunk dint get to cal her n reply her msg.
skrg stil feel guilty.dint drink le lo.
last wil be SMOKING~again again & again~
little mui mui suddenly say wan buy sweet for me eat to stop smoke wor~evryday alr kena gam cham by dear le~
nw both also wan buy those thing to me~
i think if i success jor i need to take tissue wipe my tear:"sayonara my pall mall menthol!must take care o!" =.=
sound so sad leh~ :(
mummy complain tht i evry month also borrow money frm her~ask me go find ah pek n kahwin pi.
cham le~dear stil sdg usaha to study.
hw arh??? mum cant wait for few yr meh?
i believe my dear wil do smthg for me de ba?
you Wont dump me to uncle gua~ :(
wuwuwu~i dun wan lo~
wo xi huan de shi ni~bu shi ta~ :P

Think twice or third~plz~

im sorry tht let u wait for me when i drunk here.
i nvr do anythg wrong since we start.
honestly to tel u tht aftr last nite it make me damn guilty tht drink until drunk~
it makes me really wan treat u serious n well.
start from 2day i knw wht to do le :P
mission: make amelia khor fall for me~
abt ur fren,i hope u think twice lo~
i knw u like dominic so much. i dun mind if u stil lk him.
if thr was chances together v him,dun let it go.
luck nt gonna always round beside u so get the chance in the rite timin.
mayb im just a bus stop for u. drop by n go.
no need say sorry o.
just chase for ur love.i support u de XD
miss u~ wahaha~i dun wan namo namo can arh?
i scare leh~tahan! sabar! i cn do it! gua? :P
cannot angry ya.kiddin only.
i wil treat u better single day.
no quarrel no fightin just kissin!
:-* muackzZz~ I miss you my dear ms.Amelia Khor Chee Kei XD

Amelia Khor~

Recently havin a relationship v my dear Amelia~
We quite accidently start it but we wont end it up~
Kind of surprise tht thr was sumone got alot of thinkin n habit same v me de lo~
Dear o,u make me feel so much love.I wish tht u really can be the one open my heart.
Now u wan me believe in true love vry hard le lo.
So gambateh o bao bei. Hope u can do it.
For ur past i dun care but ur future yes.
I dun mind tht u make me wear "green hat" but at least dun lie me.
Treat me sincerely v ur heart.
In tis whole week im glad tht i can charge my phone evryday ><
N i got chance to touch my phone more than ten times per day.
God givin me chance to recover.
I know it is just depend on myself le.
What am i waitin for?
Hopefully is u~Amelia my bao bei~

Wht is it mean? @.@

Dear you scare me do you know tht?
Thr was 7 miss call bfore i accept ur 8th call~
Is good to hv chance to hear ur voice but is worst tht i heard u drunk~
Drunk only make u think of me n call me?
or just im the only one can talk v u in our special way?
Hw i wish thr was one moment tht u really miss me,love me or need me~
Always keep on remind myself stay away from dreamz~
But we stil always meet in dreamZ~
Little cutie,do u remember wht i said bfore?
Those promise i just keep for u only.
The way i touch u,the smell which belong to u,the warmth came from ur body,the strong feelin when we need each other~
All tis started hide in my mind le~i couldnt find it~
The more i try to recall it the more it bcame invisible~
Wish tht the day tht evrythg wil just came out in my real life again~Cause i really miss u,sayang~

Fate

Fate de mandarin is (yuan fen)also equal to (nasib).
When we buyin drinks for "Predator",suddenly met my fren sayin the movie wasnt good to watch~
My god lo~nowaday really no nice movie le a?
Need to wait until i buy ticket jor only got sumone tell me a?
Cham lo~Cant wait to see next & nice movie.
Same lk situation above~suddenly found out my blog got draft leh.
totally surprise me~but it also long time ago jor de.
Luckily thr was sumthg stil left half for me which came from you~
Our met is totally fate from the beginning until now~
Fate tht met u, knew u, like u, love u,together v u & end up v u~
Deeply believe in Fate after tis~
Hair tht keep it short short is to remind myself i stil havent do wht i promise to u~ No more cut hair~
Fate always came out v late lesson after u alr go through evrythg~
Just like me & u~ Learn to get better~
Cause u alwayz deserve to get the best~

Meaning~Of~Life?

what is the meaning of life leh?suddenly think of tis question~
once in a lifetime~
i born,learn,eat,walk,talk,study,love,work,STRESS~nt yet end tim~
soon wil b old,alone,sick & die~
macam ini punya life siok ah? macam ****~
in between work & stress punya situation nw,pall mall menthol bcome my life partner jor~
wan divorce so long le~but i scare i wil bcome more worst when i get the chance to touch it again~
it similiar to drug~gotta start "Just a little bit" control my life partner le lo >.dun feel like wanna alone in life but also dun feel wanna get into love trouble anymore~tis is wht call "mao dun".
miss the moment phone ring~ XD
miss the moment eat supper~
miss the moment Sleep~ zZZZ!

Macam BODOH~

Ppl call once only ur face alr change jor a? Teruk la u~
Actually im talkin abt myself~ XP
Fourth day le ma~of course full of worry & miss ba?
Know the truth tht im FAIL. What to do wor?
Kena scold teruk2 by sis & cousin.
Haiya~once in a life time~
Im not so Long Age can do so much stupid thing rite?
Who knows mayb not even 1 month leh?
(although i alr knw the ans la)>Celakalah~let it be la~thing come thing go~
So hardworkin is a good thing but remember take care ur health.
My pray not tht strong de lo~
@.@
Myself nvm la~Cutie like u different rite? :P
Time to restart my casino game & dream le~
When slowly tired of playin Jackpot,tht time my cupid will wait me in my dream le~
Thanks god for giving chance to have nice dreamz evry nite~
JACKPOT~CUPID~,I'm CominG~ XD

Wu liao @.@

Just fin watch movie AGAIN~
Used to online n check all tis stupid stuff~
A bit disappointed when dint get chance chase somebody sleep~:P
So i go kacau other innocent ppl~
Luckily at last all also guai guai go sleep le~Only alone online~
Haha XD tis is what call wu liao la~
Sudah biasa keluar dgn MP3 walaupun dgn kawan2ku~
With the song & drinks tht make me feel warm around me~
Where is the warm come from leh?
Deeply from heart & memory.
What we used to do when we met? :P
Even early mornin suddenly wake up can smell dou tim!
Smell tht i nvr forget,Touch tht nvr get enough,Warm tht nvr out of my heart,Happy tht nvr run out of my memory~ XD
Evryday so simple,so easy & so WU LIAO~

P/S: Now didnt gam cham somebody le, so wil start gam cham here~ pai seh le lo~Plz forgive tis Super Wu Liao de ME~or else faster pray let other someone kena gam cham by me la~

A Rainy Day~

<<How heavy of rain & how dark of the sky could let me feel ur care again?
Without me, u wont realise any different in ur life~
Evrythg alr make the result so clear~>>
The taste of loneliness i finally und le~
Thanks to the god tht transfer evry single suffer part which she face in past to me~
Run to ur happiness & dun ever turn back to the past
Heavy rain just past half hour ago~Im stil repeating the song "A Rainy Day".
Chorus is just nice & suitable for evryone waitin ppl tht hardly turn to us.
Brother,how long we stil need to bcome Jake/Jacob ya?
Since last episode until tis,Jake stil waitin & lovin~
We stil lovin the one we used to love.
How abt let fate decide evrythg?cause we alr try our best d~
Tired le but stil happy & excited abt Memories~ XD

Just simple as fresh air~

Ppl can choose to mess up my wall so do i~
I dun scare ppl to see and help me judge on the problem~
Opinion of ppl always accept by me~
Make it simple~Thing come thing go~
Same like love & hate.
Keep it as a memory tht first argue abt a girl btw two tb tht nvr talk to each other.
World is small but full of alot of human being.
Out of so many ppl "act damn alot!" ><,the percentage tht two person meet is 0.0000001%~ ^^! its just wht i feel plus guess la~
so do appreciate the fate when u meet each other~
day by day-week by week-month by month even year by year,
I would lk to challenge my patient and see the result of it~
Of course we all love happy ending.
Story wil start with :"Long long time ago..."
same as my story and evryone's story~
Turn to the back wil realise evrythg pass by damn fast~
# yrs ago~:P soon 2010 gonna end le ba?
sad tht i get nothing~ XD
Offday stay at home too sien le la~waitin tht leng lui which plan to go out with me~ morning cant sleep wait until now le~
pity leh? what to do? girls what? sumore nice girl like her is worth to wait~ haha~sendiri write sendiri siok~
I'll make my life simple & happy de~
Like our Soho slogan: Dun Worry Be Happy~
I miss Soho!!! & Guinness too~

Surprise~XD

kind of surprise when knowin tht thr was sumone c my blog~
thanks ya~such a broken english also wan u to read~paiseh lo >.<
gotta let evryone clear abt situation nw~
its not just a concert~cause it also a support to all my fren in kl.
of course is especially her~
the moment i need to walk away,i no need to tell evryone~i write it just for myself~thing tht i write in blog makin sumone so care.
sorry for tht lo~nothing more than fren~
even thought u step on my tail but my wish to u both wil nvr change~
treat my ex good is wht i did always~cause i feel appreciate when they was around me no matter i sad or happy for certain period.
I wil avoid to treat her nice anymore is to make sure we all clear abt the status.
For what i did wrong, i'll say sorry~
For what u been did wrong,u no need say a word~
cause i dun really care it anymore.
Since last nite we all should knw tis situation cant b continue cause it gonna make thing worst~she was right tht might be we had misunderstand~
Just let it go and continue doin what u should do~
Stop care what i write & feel~
Is luck tht got sumone around u,love u and care u~
So evryone "appreciate what you have now"
cause it may disappear in any moment~
Stay cool & live happily in ur life which dun hv second chance~

Unforgetable trip

I thought i wil feel nth when i was there but i was wrong.
Feelin tht saw you but couldnt hold you is sufferin myself.
When the nite start and tht moment i saw her,i strongly und tht i shouldnt attend it.
Can feel tht im the one "Extra". damn siok lo. the moment controllin the tear & tear pulak doesnt care de wor.luckily my sis de mp3 acc me.
You make me feel tht she is ur everythg.and im nothing.
Concert was the thing tht make me feel worth to come far but not you.
After tis i realize i never success if life keep goin like tis.
Tis was the second time i walk along from hotel to Sentul station.
I stil remember first time you were the one acc me walk to thr.
Am i lonely when i go alone without anyone talk to me? YES,I AM.
So i thanks to all the one talk v me inbtw this trip.even just once.
to be continue 2mr.

Time to wake Up @.@

Soul bcome not belong to myself anymore. Hws tht feelin?
I und hws tht feelin so i dun wan my bro or anyone get fall into trap anymore.
Sorry bro tht it doesnt a good news tht i would lk to hear.
yes u may feel happy but it wont long. Tht gurl didnt belong to u.

Life is a ugly truth same goes to Love.
If u alr got True Love, congrat u r Lucky!

Ppl which kind of bad luck lk me, just waitin time to wake up frm bad dream.
Too positive thinkin wont make ur life better.
In fact half of each is the BEST!
To all my fren im vry Sorry if did smthg wrong to u all.
Wake me up if i having mistake in anythg.
The day i start new job wil b the day i slowly walk out frm the past!

One second to MET smone.
One hour to LIKE smone.
One day to LOVE smone.
But... gotta use one life time to FORGET smone.


P/S: Ppl tht u love keep them in heart, it wil bcome some kind of effort to make ur life better! I repeatin doin it evryday.

S.K.O.L ......

Now can consider everynight gotta get one S.K.O.L beer only can sweet dreams le lo...
Yesterday suddenly got mood wanna run out frm my room after see smthg good...
My best fren finally get married le lo...Congratulation dear...
Life be NOTHING if you live UNHAPPY! so wish you all HAPPY evryday!
Especially to my little best fren... XD
2moro gonna be my last day in my 2nd home le...im gonna miss those regular cus!
When i start new job gotta make myself tired and stop *S>K>O>L* le...
Get ready to new challenge & tough life...
I believe evryone hv challenge in their life but gotta be brave to solve it!
2moro nite i got some mission which is vry vry impossible success de...
but wish me good luck... i'll try my best to make it no matter what is the ENDING...

This is officially ma?

When every second i try to call u,do u knw hw hard i am controllin myself?
Every night when i cant sleep well,do you knw hw suffer i am?
How i wish i cn stop blamin this love which bring all pain to me...
movie...quite touchin but mayb i control myself so tear havent drop...When i see the ending,YES! KL the place tht i hope i'll nvr go thr anymore...
Tear start rolling in my eye...
Memory which make me happy n sad...
Ppl which make me happy n sad...
Evryone was RIGHT...Im the only one which was WRONG!
How could i live without YOU? I really wan to know...
Writin thing tht come from my heart...
Lovin smone tht come from my heart...
Should i say lucky or unlucky to love such a person lk u?
For sure tht u wil say unlucky...bt Y i keep fall n fall?
Trap was deep but myself make it deeper...
Stop listen to the same song...it wont make u feel better...
Stop thinkin at the same person...she wont feel tht...(ANYMORE)!
Just to talk crap and talk cock!
I knw i knw...i dun hv cock... XD

我不在乎 - 安志杰&曾恺玹 (电影<亲爱的>主题曲)

亲爱的 你在那里
亲爱的 听我的心
痛苦的回忆 如何能忘记
多少思念能换的回你

亲爱的 我在这里
亲爱的 别再哭泣
远方的距离 没人能决定
梦里永远有个约定

我不在乎世界多吵闹
我只要和你一起到老
你的苦我都明了
给我一个拥抱 当依靠

不在乎他们怎么想
我只会假装我听不到
这一路有多难熬
只要你的心里有我就好

亲爱的 我不放弃
亲爱的 我不甘心
故事的结局 在你我手里
我只相信这个约定

我不在乎世界多吵闹
我只要和你一起到老
你的苦我都明了
给我一个拥抱 当依靠

不在乎他们怎么想
我只会假装我听不到
这一路有多难熬
只要你的心里有我就好

我不在乎世界多吵闹
我只要和你一起到老 （一起到老）
你的苦我都明了
给我一个拥抱 当依靠

不在乎他们怎么想
我只会假装我听不到
这一路有多难熬
只要你的心里有我就好
有我就好 有我就好

P/S: Accidently found this song,how i wish threre is sumone sing it together v me...

New>>> Blog???

Trying to had new life v my new blog...but seriously im not tht good in writing la...
Eerm...surpose to say is typing ke? Yaya...
I had been go through (consider) quite a lot of bad experience la...of course is in (LOVE)...
Tomorrow OFFDAY! but im not happy at all!!!
Just fin watch some ppl fb...F**k tht all shit la...doesnt matter v me jor...
Im gonna get a new life...thinking how to get a new partner too... @.@!wahaha...
Gotta need some opinion how to pass through the time tht you hate a?
actually without partner i feel no life...Sucks rite?
tis few weeek my life appear 1 sifu pulak...Daddy Bull...haha...
he teach me need to be patient to tackle gurlz...
daddy oi...my target not much ppl knw de lo...act only YOU...
dun ever ever let her know man...
Or else i think i really wil kena kick until lay in miami beach...haha
( Oh my super girl! you are my baby girl!) frm:super junior
Nowadays start love SJ...SWT...
Attention: NOT < S & J > !!!